When I was younger, I was the girl who was never going to
conform. I wanted to be and would be a career woman. An education and a career
were at the forefront of my mind and having a family would just work itself in
there somewhere. I was the girl who wanted to work when I had kids…no need to
lose my identity right? I set high goals with career, money and lifestyle in
mind. I wanted to accomplish something and feel that boost when I told people
what I did for a living. I was that girl. I would not conform. I would never be
“just a mom”.
NOW, all I want is to conform. I want nothing more than to
be a stay at home mom. I never knew how much I wanted it until I almost couldn’t
have it. Having a child has been and will always be, no matter what, my biggest
accomplishment. If I can raise a good, polite, hard-working child, then there
is nothing in this world, or that this world has to offer, that can out-do
that. I want to downsize, I want to simplify, I want nothing more than to say I’m
“just a mom”. We are working hard to make that happen. It may take some time,
but I know that it will happen. I NEVER thought I would feel this way, but
then, I had never had a child before. Life has been good to me, and I’ve always
said that it just keeps getting better. Now that I have a child, it is truer
than ever. I have an all consuming, unconditional love and joy in my life.
Sometimes I think I might burst at the seams I have so much love. I’m so
grateful for the opportunity and blessing of being a mother. I can’t even
express in words how grateful I am to have gotten this opportunity.
lounging in our jammies
