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22 WEEKS!!

2011-12-21T13:03:00.000-08:00

Week 21

My how time seems to have flown!! It went kind of slow at first and now the weeks seem to be flying by. I just wanted to document some of my thoughts on being pregnant. Around week 8 I started getting really sick. I had hoped that I would be one of the lucky few who got to skip that part, and thankfully it only lasted 3 weeks, but I found myself running to the bathroom and dry-heaving over the toilet more than I would have liked to. Even though I never did actually throw-up, I was very nauseated and would have to run to the bathroom just in case. And the fatigue!!! Oh man, how did I make it through the first tri-mester? Thoughts of the outcome definitely helped. I had lots of advice from family and friends to help make it through as well. Some of the best remedies were lemonade, preggie pops, staying hydrated, sprite and sleep...lots and lots of sleep. The nausea eventually went completely away after about week 13 and even though the fatigue subsided, I still feel tired most of the time. I am told that growing a baby is hard work, like climbing a mountain every day. I certainly feel like I've climbed a mountain every day. Here are some ups and downs over the last few weeks:

My body: Well, my body is definitely changing. My belly is getting bigger, my boobs are huge, my hips are wider and my butt and thighs seem to have grown as well (boooo). I work-out here and there but definitely not as much as I thought I would. I come home from work exhausted and just sleep sleep sleep all day. Despite all of that, I have managed to only gain about 9 pounds so far. So, I feel pretty good about that...even though I know it's partly because I've lost muscle (which is heavy) and replaced that with fat. Oh well, still feels good to say that I've only gained 9 pounds!!!! I'm loving that I have a little bump now and look pregnant, as opposed to just looking fat.

The baby: I have several ultra-sound pictures to post as soon as I get around to scanning them in. It is awesome to see him...yes I said HIM...go from looking like just a tiny blur to looking like a real baby. We went in at 15 weeks and 3 days and had the gender determination done at which time we also got to see some really good pictures of his spine and full body shots. At 21 weeks, we went for the big ultrasound with my doctor. He showed us all the different parts of the baby, including the brain, all 4 chambers of the heart, diaphram, face, arms/hands, legs/feet and boy parts. It was AWESOME! He also reassured us that there are no signs of cleft palate or spina bifida...fwhew! At around week 19 I started feeling him move around and that has been the BEST feeling ever.

Austin: He has been amazing, truly amazing. He has to deal with my bigger than usual mood swings and he is always able to pull a smile and a laugh out of me. He has been great throughout, dealing with my fatigue. I will literally come home from work sometimes and lay down on the couch or bed and not get back up. He gets me to come on walks with him and our dog often which is good for me, baby and our relationship. Sometimes I feel myself getting a little emotional that he takes such good care of me and I know that he will be such a good father. I am so happy I could just die sometimes.

My favorite things about being pregnant: Feeling the baby move, thinking about when I get to meet him, people being a little nicer and more caring to me, and preparing the house.

Things I could do without: THE FATIGUE, lol. The fatigue has definitely been the worst part, but everyday I'm just plugging away. The other major thing I could do without is people's unwanted negative comments and advice. If I hear "just wait" one more time, I might kill that person. Just let me be happy and excited right now, in the moment. I KNOW that my life is going to change and it is going to be hard, but guess what...I WANT THIS BABY. I want a family and I'm not delusional to the fact that it is going to be hard work. So, keep the negativity to yourselves!!

I never thought I could love something so much before I even get to see it, but I do. What a miracle this has all been and each day that goes by it gets more real. Part of me can't wait and the other part wants it to drag out. I look forward to the next 4 months and what they can bring.

Around week 14

BABY ON BOARD!!!

2011-09-09T07:20:00.000-07:00

After trying for about 4 1/2 years and being told we have a 2% chance of getting pregnant on our own, we beat the odds!!!!

THE STORY

Most of you know our struggles to get pregnant. After trying for a couple of years, we finally went to a fertility clinic and tried a few tx's there. After those failed, I ended up getting pregnant on my own, only to miscarry at 5 weeks. The whole experience was so heartbreaking and debilitating that I finally gave up trying about a year and a half ago and decided to just live my life and whatever happens...happens. I had a FABULOUS year last year. It is amazing what can happen when you just put your trust in the Lord and let go. I ran my first marathon, went on countless boating trips, got to know new people, did a couple of things that I've always wanted to do, traveled a little, GOT A PROMOTION (woo hoo), and many other happy things that I can't think of at this very moment. All in all, I've just been really happy and content.

Around my 34th birthday...about a week prior to be exact, I started thinking hard about trying to get pregnant again (not that we ever really stopped trying). I wasn't sure I would ever want to step foot in a fertility clinic again, but I finally made up my mind that I would do whatever it took. I decided to try everything that was available to me, so that one day I could look back with no regrets that I didn't try every avenue. I was referred to a fairly new fertility clinic in Pleasant Grove and a highly recommended fertility doctor (Dr. Foulk). I scheduled a consultation and they couldn't get me in till mid August because they were so booked out. When we finally did get to meet Dr. Foulk, we had a great consult and we both left there feeling like he would be the one to help us. He was very aggressive in his plan and we were already scheduled to do IUI in approximately 3 weeks (which would have been Labor Day weekend). I felt very happy and satisfied that we were on our way.

Needless to say, my monthly friend was late and I ended up taking a pregnancy test that I just happened to have left over from forever ago. I can't even describe the feeling when I watched those 2 lines pop up with no doubts that I was pregnant. I shared the news with Austin and we were both so excited and relieved. WHAT A BLESSING! I told my family the next day when we were all together for Sunday dinner. I love my family so much, I couldn't ask for anything more. They are so supportive and loving and I couldn't have gotten through it all without them. I am so excited to have their support and advice in the coming months.

Later that week (5 weeks along) I called a high risk pregnancy doctor who scheduled some blood work right away. The first test results showed that my progesterone levels were low, so they started me on a supplement right away. The second results showed that my HCG levels were doubling and everything was looking normal!!!! They scheduled me for an early ultrasound at 7 weeks and it felt like an eternity waiting for that time to go by. When we finally got to go in...once again, the feeling was indescribable. I didn't realize we would get to hear the heartbeat, but when she turned the sound on and we heard that little heart beating so fast, I began to cry for the miracle of it all. What a wonderful sound and feeling.

I'm now 7 weeks and feeling great. There are days, like today, that I don't physically feel very good, but I can't help but smile through it and feel excited regardless. I sleep A LOT and have even had some crazy cravings already. The 5th week, it was all about fresh foods...fresh fruits, fresh vegetables...the fresher the better. Then, it changed to salt and vinegar. I don't think I've eaten a pickle since I was a kid, but I downed about 5 of them and ate almost an entire bag of salt and vinegar potato chips. Now, I can't even look at those things. My craving this week has been hamburgers. Every day I have to eat a hamburger. What a strange thing this is, I LOVE IT!

Well, that's my story up until now. I will probably be updating often as I want to document all the things and feelings that come up. I love you all, thanks for being there for me!

LAS VEGAS MARATHON

2010-12-06T17:32:00.000-08:00

About 15 years ago my dad and I started something...and yesterday, I finished it. I ran my first full marathon in Las Vegas, NV on Sunday, December 5th 2010 in approximately 4 hours and 28 minutes. I was told this one might be a difficult one for a beginner but it seemed only appropriate since it's the one my dad and I were training for so many years ago. And it was hard, but I wouldn't have had it any other way.
The marathon itself lived up to every expectation I might have ever had about a marathon. It was exciting, exhilarating, inspirational, fun...and it was also the exact opposite of all those things. It was exhausting, long, strenuous, brutal, down right miserable at times and also painful...mentally, physically and emotionally painful. I finished it feeling satisfied and fulfilled. I am so very grateful that I took the time to train and prepare for the entire 18 weeks, and I was not left wanting at the end. I have never been so happy to be done with something and so happy that I did it at the same time.
There was no better feeling than to run down to the finish line and see my mom, dad, husband Austin, Amanda, Gina and her friend Nicole there cheering me on. It made it all worth it when my dad gave me an embrace that no one could ever put a price on. Words cannot describe what I felt and how I still feel.
There were 30,000 runners. It was an incredible sight. I remember when the 1/2 marathoners split off from us and were almost done...it was sooooo tempting just to hop over to their side and just be finished, ha ha ha. I'm so glad I stuck with it, even if half the marathon was up hill!! The first half of the marathon was on the strip where I ran alongside the likes of hundreds of Elvis's, santa clauses, one Axel Rose and many others dressed up in fun outfits. There was live music and high school cheerleaders playing alongside the entire marathon. I am eternally grateful to all the volunteers and spectators who handed out energy gu, drinks, water and encouragement the entire way. I have no idea what might have been registering on my face those last 3 miles, but everyone made a point of looking right at me and telling me to keep going.
I was emotional at the end and I'm emotional now just writing about it. Like I said before, words can't begin to describe the array of emotions that I felt the entire way through and at the end. I really feel like I accomplished something for me and my dad. I'm so glad he was there and got to see it. It's incredible what we can accomplish if we set our minds to it, make a plan and take the time to prepare.
Thanks again to my family who could be there and the love and support from those who had to stay home. LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

Me and Austin in front of Caesar's Palace

My dad and Alyssa, poor thing was sick the whole time.

All of us at Serendipity's. The frozen hot chocolate was amazing!!!

My family is incredible. They all wore "Team Lady Lux" shirts at the race. Aren't they clever!

My dad and Austin sporting their shirts

They even made one for me

My dad and I...I look a mess because I just ran 26.2 miles and had been crying too. :)

Almost to the finish line!

BIRTHDAY WEEK!!

2010-08-17T20:05:00.001-07:00

You heard me right, I said birthday week! I figured out when I was a kid how to manipulate the system and make sure I got the most out of my birthday. I used my birthday as an excuse all week long to get out of chores, get extra attention, treats, presents and money...30 years later and not much has changed.
Austin was out of town for my birthday week so I thought it might be somewhat uneventful this year...I was wrong, thank goodness. It started Monday when the cutest family down the street invited me over to have family night with them. Austin was gone so I figured it would be a good way to spend my evening. When I walked in to the house, Melanie (the mom) led me into their kitchen where they had decorated for me and the whole family sang happy birthday. I felt like a princess when they handed me a crown and a head band that read "It's your birthday". We had a great message, played games and ate the yummiest birthday cake. Thank you Lundbergs for giving me a great kick-off to my birthday week!! Love you guys! Then on Tuesday I went boating with my friends Tony and Sara...what better way to spend a day of my birthday week? It was awesome! On Wednesday (my actual birthday) I got spoiled by my co-workers and my two sisters showed up at work with my nieces and nephew, some flowers and gift cards. I got a little emotional at that. The kids were so dang cute and I love my sisters so much...that night we all had dinner at Gina's house. On Thursday, my besties Michelle and Cassie took me out to eat at Cafe Rio and gave me a gift card to Forever 21, holla!!! Then on Friday, Austin came home...no better way to end my birthday week. We went to Tucano's and pigged out because there is no other way to eat at Tucano's. All in all, it was very memorable. Thank you to everyone for the birthday wishes, thoughts, treats, gifts and loves!

4th of July at Starvation

2010-07-09T19:07:00.001-07:00

We headed to Starvation Reservoir for the long 4th of July weekend with all our besties!! It was windy but sunny the first day, so once again we surfed a lot!! We are becoming pro's on the surfboard and we all tried to land 360's. I am confident we will all be doing 360's on the surfboard by the end of summer...Austin got it on the last day there!!! Woo hoo! I hate him, he's good at everything, haha! Love him ;) We were on the water as much as possible the first day and surfed well after dark...definitely top 5 surfing trips for sure! We had such great company and loved spending time with our friends.

I always have to get a picture right away while we all look fresh, haha.

Austin looking good as ever

Not the best wave of the day but surfing well nonetheless.

Everyone hanging on the boat while Austin surfs

Ummmm, we got stuck in the mud and the boys had to push us out. One of those moments you're glad you're a girl and can sit and watch. :)

The second day the weather changed drastically but we are DIE HARDS and determined to make the most of anything, we had a great time even though it was less than perfect.

Of course it cleared up later in the day and we all went out again. The shirt says it all!

Mmmmmmwuah!

The kids showing off their dancing skills

The big girls showing off their dancing skills!! LOL!

Me, Cassie and Michelle

Haha, Cassie felt like the statue of liberty in that dress so we took a pic. She looks so cute!

Sage all bundled up

ECLIPSE baby!!! We did it again!

2010-07-09T18:51:00.000-07:00

We rented a theater again for the 3rd Twilight movie "Eclipse". But, not just any regular private showing, we had the opportunity to host a pre-screen of the movie. It was awesome!!!! We were one of a handful of private screenings that were able to see the movie a whole day early. We were the envy of everyone and of course filled the theater with all our friends. We gave out tons of prizes and really had a great time, as always. The movie was by far the best one yet in the series and the whole experience rocked! My policy lately is...if you're going to do something, do it right and experience all that life has to offer. My sister Gina, my mom and I all worked so hard and I feel like we really pulled off an amazing event. Gina and her friends made eclipse sugar cookies for everyone in the whole theater and Gina and my mom put together a fabulous after party.

The marquee in front of our theater read: Welcome guests of Rachel Lux. It was AWESOME! ha!

We had tons of food and desserts at the after-party thanks to Gina, my mom, me and tons of friends. We were able to use our neighbors fabulous back yard and everything couldn't have been more perfect.

I mean, really, we're practically famous now, we just are the best event planners ever!!!

Friends hanging out and socializing

Me, Sarah, Andrea, Brei

Some of my besties from high school came and I had so much fun hanging with them. No matter how long it goes, when we get together it's like we were never apart. Love them.

Gina and a bunch of her pals hanging out at the after party. She has such a fun group of friends.

Yuba!

2010-07-09T18:44:00.000-07:00

1/2 Marathon Results Update

2010-06-14T12:56:00.000-07:00

My official 1/2 marathon time was 1 hour 59 minutes and 26 seconds. I finished 243rd out of 1000+ people. I was 98th out of 592 girls. Yay me!!

My First Half Marathon

2010-06-12T08:24:00.000-07:00

When I was a teenager, my dad and I shared a love for running. It was so fun that we had that in common. We started training to run in a marathon at one point, but it wasn't meant to be. I was badly injured in a hiking accident that had me on crutches for several weeks and my dad had what would become the first of many "scary"skin cancer spots removed from the side of his face. We both recovered, but for whatever reason were unable to ever motivate ourselves to resume training for a different marathon...now one of the biggest regrets of my life. Fast forward to present day and my dad is now battling two types of cancer and chronic back pain which prevent him from doing his most favorite things. My whole life my dad has sacrificed for our family...sacrificed beyond what I can even comprehend. He went to great lengths to make sure that we always had enough...more than enough, and that we could always stay together as a family. He truly is my hero. I've been so caught up in my own woes lately that I have forgotten to just live my life and be happy. Life is so short, SO SHORT!
About a month and a half ago, I decided to stop worrying so much about what I don't have and start making the most out of what I do have...my health! I don't know what it is, but I have decided I need to do things I've always wanted to. Two friends of mine at work were signed up for the Utah Valley Half Marathon and I thought it would be a great way to start getting in shape for a full marathon. In the last month and a half I have accomplished things I never thought I could and pushed my limits further than I thought I ever would. Today, I ran my first half marathon faster than I had planned. I couldn't help but think of my dad and wish he were there with me. THIS ONE'S FOR YOU DAD!!! Maybe I can convince him to be there at the finish for my first marathon. :)Me, Jessica and Kristen at Brick Oven the night before the race "carb loading" Don't know if that was the greatest idea, but it sure was yummy!

Our morning started at 3:00 am. I woke up and contemplated staying in my warm bed, as I could hear the rain pounding on the roof. We met up at Provo Towne Center mall at 4:00 am where the buses took us up to the starting line, just above Vivian Park in Provo canyon. It was dark, cold and drizzly but our nerves and adrenaline kept us going until the race started at 5:45 am.
What a beautiful and amazing run! The canyon was extra green and lush due to all the rain we have had lately. It seemed like all the smells and scenery were exponentially increased, but maybe it was just my high from running my first 1/2 marathon. I couldn't help but smile most the way due in part to the fabulous music mix I put together, the wonderful people both running and volunteering, and the great pace I had set for myself. I shed my jacket at about mile 2 and the cool weather couldn't have been more perfect for running 13.1 miles. When I made it out of the canyon (about half way through the course) I even started to get a little emotional at all the people there cheering us on. Perfect strangers (who were there for their friends and family) made a point of cheering and clapping for the rest of us too. I was more overwhelmed then I thought I would be at just how fast the whole thing seemed to be going. At mile 12 I had where we would be finishing in sight and I almost felt sad...almost. What a thrill. I rounded the corner nearing the end and for just that one moment, everyone was cheering for me, all was right with the world and my life was perfect. Then I crossed the finish line. I did it! I was hoping to finish in 2 hours and 10 minutes, but crossed at almost exactly 2 hours flat. Jessica, who is 11 weeks pregnant, finished just behind me at 2 hours 9 minutes and Kristen, who has stress fractures caused by all the training, finished not too far off at 2 hours 41 minutes. Way to go girls!!!

Jessica at the finish line

Me and Jess sporting our medals.

My number and medal

Memorial Day Weekend 2010

2010-06-06T20:52:00.000-07:00

So, here's typically how things work at the Lux household...

*two weeks before Memorial Day*

Me: "Austin, I took 4 days off for Memorial Day. Sara and Tony are going to Sand Hollow and I think it would be really fun to go too."

Austin: "We'll see. Let's sit down in a couple of days and plan it out."

Me: "Okay."

*1 week before Memorial Day*

Me: "Hey Austin, I really want to plan something for Memorial Day weekend. Remember I took 4 days off and I would love to get out of town. Let's call Tony and Sara and see what the plan is for Sand Hollow. I think that would be perfect."

Austin: "Okay, we'll see. I'll try to talk to Tony and see what the plan is."

*5 days before Memorial Day weekend*

Me: "So, are we going to do something for Memorial Day weekend? Or just stay around here. Because I might as well work if we're sticking around."

Austin: *no reply, working on computer.*

Me: *throwing my hands up in exasperration*

*2 days till Memorial Day Weekend*

Austin: "Hey Rachel, Tony and Sara are going to Sand Hollow this weekend, I think we should go."

Me: "What a great idea." *rolling my eyes*

Even though I seem to be invisible, (Austin calls it "selective hearing") Austin came through and planned out a really fun weekend. We ended up driving down with our friends Ross, Trish and baby Cole. We stopped at Zion's Natl. Park on the way down and hiked around until it got dark. Then, we stayed in St George and went to Sand Hollow with Tony Sara on Saturday. We had so much fun and soaked up plenty of sun. We headed down to Las Vegas for Sunday where we went to the aquarium at Mandalay Bay and hit the Criss Angel show that night. P.S. Don't bother with Criss Angel's show, it was disappointing to say the least. All in all it was a fabulous weekend!

one of those moments

2010-06-06T20:39:00.000-07:00

I have never seen the movie "My Sister's Keeper." I've kind of always wanted to, but it looks like such a sad movie, it's just never really been one of those movies that i'm like..."oh I think I'll rent that tonight". Anyway, it was on HBO the other day and I was just flipping aimlessly through channels (one of those 500-channels-to-watch-and-nothing-on kind of moments) and there it was. So, i stopped flipping channels and decided to watch for a minute. Holy smokes, from the first minute I was not only hooked, but crying the whole way through. All the actors were so good and convincing. I couldn't help but think about all the CHILDREN who this is actually a reality for. I can't believe what some people go through. It definitely puts things in perspective for me. I have a great life, and now I feel like making someone else's life great. I am determined to do more and be more.

2010-04-24T18:28:00.000-07:00

Austin and I have been the road trip king and queen this month. It has been so nice to spend so much time with him. We have such opposite schedules normally that it seems we only see each other for a few minutes a day and I think it was really starting to wear on both of us. So, these little road trips have been just what the doctor ordered and such a blessing. No near-death experiences this time! We had a really great time on this road trip. Austin had to drop a boat off in California and then pick one up in Arizona so I decided to join him for the ride. I can't believe what a beautiful journey it was. It is always beautiful in California, but it seemed extra colorful, sunny and lush this time of year. The landscape changes so drastically throughout california, arizona and utah it was amazing!! Driving through Paige, Arizona and by Lake Powell I couldn't help but wish we could just put the boat in and go for a ride! It was gorgeous!!

March 18th, a special day

2010-03-23T17:28:00.000-07:00

March is a very special month because 4 years ago on the 18th, Austin and I were married. It feels like it has FLOWN by!! Seriously, where has the time gone? Austin was in Louisiana working with his dad so I've really missed him. I can't wait for him to get home. I sent him a bunch of hard to find neopolitan coconut sundae candies and he surprised me by sending me a dozen GORGEOUS roses!! LOVE YOU AUSTIN! These last 4 years have been the best of my life. Can't wait for the next 40!

March Madness!

2010-03-23T16:36:00.000-07:00

Austin has spent the better part of March out of town. For one week, I got to join him! We took a road trip to visit his parents in Poplarville, Mississippi. After a near death experience towing a boat through a blizzard, we had a very relaxing visit and it was so nice to spend time with his parents and some of his friends that we haven't seen in a VERY long time. Of course we made it in to New Orleans for a visit with Grams and down to the french quarter for begnets, mmmmmmm. Yes, I gained like 10 pounds while I was there...it's all fried!! all of it!!! So fun and so good just to indulge and enjoy sometimes. One of his friends owns a ranch with several animals. We got to see a one day old lamb, soooooo cute! We had fun hanging out with the horses and pony and eating dinner with his friends family. Austin is still out of town, but I got to go down to the famous Zoll cabin this weekend with my family. Although I don't have any pics this time, it was a great experience. I love spending time with my fam. My sisters, mom and I even went to Wal-mart down in Ephraim at mid-night to buy the New Moon DVD...I know, the nerdiness never ends. It was so fun!! In the theater room, I watched with my brothers in frustration as BYU lost in the second round. Way to go for making it past the first round, I guess.

THIS POOR PONY! They made me do it. LOL!!

LiFE!

2010-03-23T12:36:00.000-07:00

So, I was driving to work at 6:00 a.m. this morning and I was literally thinking about how much I LOVE my car. It just drives so smooth and accellerates so nicely. Then, at about 6:03 a.m. I got hit by another car. Lessons come big and small. It's just a possesion Rachel, it's just a possesion. LOL!

Good News and Bad News

2010-02-09T20:24:00.000-08:00

I PROMISE I will post pictures of happier times in my next post...but so much significant stuff has happened. I can't believe right after I blogged my testimony I had this amazing experience. I was really upset after our attempt with IUI was unsuccessful. I told Austin I couldn't emotionally do it again right away and that I would like to wait a month before going back to the fertility clinic...I mean really, it is soooooo not romantic to do things that way *snickers*. Anyway, we tried the old fashioned way again while I was taking a mental break. Two weeks and a few days later I was late, which I didn't think much of because I've been a few days late every month for the past 3 years. I just couldn't help myself though...I just happened to have a pregnancy test laying around and I thought, "you know, I just don't want to think about it and wait for my monthly friend to come along." Soooooo, I took the pregnancy test- I can't tell you how many of those I've gone through in the last 3 years- and 3 minutes later I had a positive sign!!!! Every few minutes after that I checked it just to make sure I wasn't dreaming, or that the positive line didn't somehow disappear. I did a little dance right there in the bathroom. I was so excited and even took a second pregnancy test just to be sure. For 5 days I was on cloud nine and I literally planned out how I would tell my family, then how I would tell my friends, and then how I would tell the rest of the world. Oh, and I also was planning out my baby shower too. Austin was so cute, even though he was scared to really believe it, he would talk to my belly and call it a boy...I had to correct him and tell him it was going to be a girl. Then...5 days after the first positive pregnancy test...I started to miscarry. I remember being in the bathroom again and just repeating "no" over and over again. I wasn't positive I was really having a miscarriage and at first I started to doubt that I was even pregnant. BUT, my little sister Amanda (and the doctor) confirmed pregnancy and also a miscarriage. I've had huge highs and lows ever since. On the one hand, I was pregnant!!! AND, it happened naturally. I can't even express the hope that has sprouted up in me. Maybe I can say sianara (I'll have to look up how to spell that) to the fertility clinic. The doctor estimated I was 5 weeks along and that is early enough to be able to try again right away. I'm really excited. On the other hand, I've been struggling with the loss. I would be lying if I said I didn't feel sooo sad sometimes. I've tried to bury it deep in me but once and a while it creeps out. I was pregnant, and I got cheated out of that experience. Yep, that's how I feel sometimes. I'm not so awesome that I can rise above those thoughts...though, I am pretty awesome, let's be honest. I finally threw away my first positive pregnancy test after about 2 to 3 weeks of not being able to. It feels good to be in a place where I can write about it now. My family and my husband are incredible!!! Thanks to them and thanks to those of you who have lightened my burden these last couple weeks. You know who you are.

Testimonial

2010-01-07T14:54:00.000-08:00

Some trials are small, some are big. Sometimes life is hard and sometimes it's easy. As I have learned in the last few years (and many times throughout my life) you have to really cherish the easy times. Sometimes we just cruise through life and everything falls into place...you have the midas touch...can do no wrong. I LOVE those times. Who doesn't? Then sometimes it's the exact opposite. Everything truly happens for a reason even if you only see it in hind-sight. I'm kinda funny because when I first learned that it wasn't going to be easy to have children, I really just kind of sat myself down (in a manner of speaking) and told myself I could get through this...I would get through this, and without freaking out or getting down or even worse, without placing blame. I really thought if I had enough faith, kept a positive attitude, prayed, read scriptures, went to church and the temple that I would get pregnant because of those things alone. I literally thought I could will myself to get pregnant. This all really isn't coming out right but I think you know what I mean. Anyway, sometimes we have to go through tough trials to learn a certain lesson...we all know this. I finally came to the point I didn't want to get to...the point where I was asking why, why me, why us, haven't I been through enough in my life? It wasn't until I arrived at this point that I've even begun to get the answer. The surprise is, it's not the answer I was asking about but an answer nonetheless. In fact answers would be the more appropriate word, answers that I needed, answers that will help me in my life WAY more than really knowing the reason why I'm not pregnant at this very moment. At this time in my life I rely on my savior not only every day but to get through every moment. I need him and he is there for me. He provides comfort where every worldly outlet has failed me. I've been cruising through these last 3 years with a false sense of what faith really is. What faith really takes. I love my savior and am so grateful for the knowledge I have and will hopefully continue to gain. We are never finished learning and growing. I've said it so much in the past and I'll say it again...I love my family beyond words and don't know what I would do without them. I also tell my husband I love him every day but want to say it again. I love him. I thank my lucky stars every day he is a part of my life. He makes each day brighter. He is the glue that holds me together. My heart flutters every time he grabs my hand. He has such an easy way about him and an amazing way to look at things that my very emotional, hormonal self can't comprehend sometimes. I can't believe how lucky I am to be able to take this journey with him. When I get down he reminds me of all the ways we are blessed and he's right...WE ARE SO BLESSED. I don't know what else I am supposed to take away from this experience and trial (other than what I've already learned) or how much longer it will last but I know that with the help of my savior I can face and get through anything...even if it doesn't turn out how I've hoped. So, you won't be seeing anymore "poor me" posts...at least, not until my next melt down. I have a GREAT life and am so thankful to those of you who have been such positive, unwavering examples to me. You know who you are...
Love ya.

IUI

2009-12-20T14:39:00.000-08:00

Okay, I wasn't going to write about this because I've been having my own little pity party all week and I'm kinda over it now...but, several people have asked me to update and since I kinda use this as a journal and an outlet I would like to write a little something. Austin and I went for our first round of IUI two weeks ago. We found out just a few days ago that it failed. We're not giving up (though I feel like I want to) because we're just scratching the surface. One attempt does not mean it's all over but it's still pretty devastating. It's just such an emotional rollercoaster. I am a HOT MESS these days, ha ha. We'll try again in a month and let ya know how it goes, or maybe I'll just let ya know when we're finally successful. We're selling our house so we can afford IVF so if you know anyone looking for a nice house in the Indian Hills area, let me know. I love you all. It's the love of my friends and family that keep me going, even when I push you away. I never realized the depth and range of emotions I would feel. I go from depressed to angry, sad and bitter on a daily basis. Is there anything I can take for that? Because I'm ready to try anything!

2009-12-02T20:39:00.000-08:00

You know, just because you understand why, doesn't mean you have to like it.

It's a "New Moon"

2009-11-27T06:18:00.000-08:00

We did it again! We rented a theater for the next installment in the Twilight movie series, "New Moon". It all started way back in April. My sister Gina had told me that she knew someone who already rented a theater for this movie and was already selling tickets. I couldn't believe it because it was 6 or 7 months before the movie! After talking about it with a few people I decided to call the events coordinator who helped me on the last movie. She told me that not only have people already been renting movie theaters for New Moon, but they were already almost sold out for opening day! Of course I went ahead and reserved our theater and that started our crazy 6 month journey of selling tickets and preparing for our private New Moon screening. We had a blast! There is something about watching a movie with a theater full of people you know, or at least know love the series. We ended up selling EVERY SINGLE seat in the house! Which made it even more fun.

We had cardboard cut-outs of the main characters that the girls could put their faces through and pretend to be Bella. Gina and I couldn't resist! Ha Ha!

Everyone getting settled in.

I had a great time giving out prizes and throwing out New Moon themed candy.

My mom threw an after party and it was a HUGE success! Our neighbor Deanne made these wolf cupcakes. Aren't they awesome!! I couldn't bring myself to eat one.

Some friends enjoying the after party.

Amanda, me, mom, Gina....the people who made it all happen!

Thanks everyone for making it memorable once again!! We're already planning Eclipse!

Our Twi-Venture!

2009-11-21T07:53:00.000-08:00

You know, I used to be cool. Then Twilight entered my life. At first I was one of "those people" who wouldn't read it just because everyone else was. I had no idea what it was even about. Then one day I was at the airport getting ready to fly to New Orleans to visit Austin who was working out there at the time. I decided to read a book on the 4 hour flight instead of go for the usual gossip magazines. So, I bought a copy of Twilight since so many people had recommended it and it was everywhere in the airport. Needless to say I was "sucked in" (hee hee) from chapter 1, read half of it on the way to New Orleans, and polished it off on the way back. Since Austin was going to be out of town for another couple weeks I ended up reading the next two books in the series which is all that was out at the time. Now look at me, I'm one of "those girls". I'm hosting private screenings for the movies and taking trips to Forks, WA, the place the books are set in. Ha ha, I just gotta laugh at myself.
It all started when Gina told me her friend was planning a trip to Forks to tour all the Twilight spots. At first I almost didn't do it, then at the last minute I decided "why not". I am so glad I went! We had so much fun! I got to really connect with my sister Gina. The girl cracks me UP! We no sooner settled into our seats on the plane then Gina grabbed a barf bag out from the back of the seat in front of her and turned to her friends to say, "I'm a puker." Her two friends sitting across the aisle, along with half the plane, including myself, leaned away in disgust as Julie and Keri simultaneously asked, "Really?" "No", Gina replied with a semi straight face while casually placing the barf bag back where it came from. Everyone from two rows in front of us to two rows in back of us erupted in laughter. I was laughing internally for long after the joke was made a little awe inspired by my cute sisters quick wit. And that's how the whole trip was. Her two friends, Julie and Keri, were so cute and hilarious! The dynamic between the four of us was great and we all fed off each other's energy...even though I became known as the longest sleeper of the group. Hey, when you get up at 4:30 in the morning every day for work, you learn to get sleep whenever you can, and it was a VACATION!!! We decided to just give in and be big dorks the whole time since that was what the weekend was all about. It made the whole experience a lot more fun.

We started our trip in Seattle, which was awesome because I've never been there. It was beautiful and everything I expected. We woke up to pounding rain the first day and by the time we made it into the city the sun was peeking through the clouds. We spent the first part of the day at Pike's marketplace. It was really fun and cool to see. We didn't get there early enough to see the fish being tossed around but we did see a lot of other interesting things there. Then we ate at the top of the Space Needle where the restaurant revolves slowly as you eat so you get a 360 degree view of the city...BEAUTIFUL!!

Gina, me, Keri, Julie and Priscilla at the Space Needle

After we were finished eating at the Space Needle we headed down to Port Angeles to eat at...you guessed it...Bella Italia!

All the businesses participated in the Twilight mania. It really made us feel less dorky knowing that everything around use was treating it all like it was real. (Don't worry, I know I'm a dork still)

Just like it had been cued, this wolf came wandering by while we were waiting outside the Bella Italia. Okay so it's an Alaskan Husky but it was too perfect!

The owner very graciously took a picture of us and some new found Twi-hard friends with the "wolf".

We all ate mushroom ravioli and cokes, except for Keri because she doesn't like mushrooms. Guess she's not as hard core as we are. *giggles*

After we ate at Bella Italia in Port Angeles we headed straight down to Forks and then on in to La Push baby. It was pitch black and midnight by the time we pulled up to our hotel "The Quillayute Oceanside Resort". When we woke up in the morning we were stunned to find we were right on First Beach. This is the view from our deck. We were literally a hundred or so feet from the beach! Anyone recognize those cliffs?

There was driftwood everywhere just like Stephenie Meyer describes in the book.

I couldn't pass up an opportunity to act like a goofball with Gina.

The locals were great and they directed us to the house that Stephenie Meyer based Jacob Black's house on. It was complete with a barn in the back and the owner's put a motorcycle out front in the spirit of the book.

Everyone capitalized and embraced the whole Twilight theme. Here is the treaty line at the edge of the indian reservation. (I told you, it doesn't feel so fake when you're there) *laughs*

Welcome to Forks everyone! We finally arrived.

You know, Edward really does prefer brunettes. *smiles, sigh*

Couldn't pass up a photo op with"Bella's truck"

This is the house they decided looks the most like Charlie and Bella Swan's house. The people who own it must be really good sports.

We stopped at the Forks Hospital and checked out Dr. Cullen's parking spot.

Fork's High School!

Gina and I acting dorky again, pretending to be hand cuffed at the Fork's police station.

Just an example of how everyone there took advantage of the Twilight craze. We thought this sign was funny. Get it?!

You never know what you'll run into in the forest.

We even built a fire that night on First Beach.

The day we went home it was so stormy the ocean looked and sounded angry. None of use could sleep that night because of the wind, rain and crashing waves. The picture doesn't do it justice.

Diet Woes

2009-11-04T08:04:00.000-08:00

I am done!!! Done!! I officially quit this diet...ha ha. I didn't last long. I can't do it. It is too hard, at least for me. I am miserable, depressed and deprived. I am making an appointment today with a fertility specialist and I'll just go that route. Hey, at least I lasted 6 weeks on that diet so I know I gave it a good go. But in that time I never felt better, my energy level kept getting lower and lower. I love to eat and life is too short not to enjoy simple little pleasures like good food!

Day 31 of "The Diet"

2009-10-27T07:12:00.000-07:00

Why hasn't it gotten any easier to eat healthy food? I want a Dr. Pepper and an egg mcmuffin soooooooooo bad this morning! It's been 31 days since my last Dr. Pepper and egg mcmuffin...anything but another salad.

Fertility Update

2009-10-25T06:56:00.000-07:00

For the last 2 and a half years that I've been trying to get pregnant people have been telling me to "just relax" "don't think about it so much" "you're too stressed out and over thinking it". At first it was just really nice thoughts and advice but after a while of trying and not succeeding it started to become VERY irritating. Then it went beyond irritating to...If I hear one more person tell me to "just relax" I might rip their head off...but there is always one more person. As you can see by my previous post I had a very relaxing, kick back summer. Austin and I decided at the beginning of summer that we were going to take the pressure off ourselves and have a good time. I decided to heed the advice of so many knowledgeable (is that how you spell it) people and "not think about it". The result: after 5 carefree months (and no crying every time someone announced they were pregnant) no pregnancy, hmmmmmm. Maybe there is a little more going on in my body than everyday stressors.
After I let about 7 months go by from my surgery I contacted my OB/GYN. She told me there was nothing more they could do for me and referred me to the U of U for consultation on more invasive and aggressive options. For some reason I dragged my feet around about it for a couple of weeks just wishing with all my heart that I would magically get pregnant and not have to go through this part. I am not one of those people that can do this...I'm just not. But, after that time of the month came and went....again, I decided to just make the call and then...
I was visiting with a couple of friends one day and one of them asked me if I've ever considered seeing a homeopathic specialist. I said as a matter of fact I haven't but I'm certainly open to it. I was a vegetarian for 6 years a long time ago and I'm definitely open to the idea of natural healing. (Besides, at this point what did I have to lose?) We went to the guys seminar together with my sister-in-law. It was informative and interesting to say the least. He is an iridologist. For all of you who have no idea what that is, it's a person who specializes in the eye. They believe that inherent weaknesses and chronic conditions of the body manifest through your eyes. (There is that saying, "the eyes are the windows to the soul.") I've actually learned about this in school and know a few people personally who have been helped by iridologists and homeopathy. I'll just put this one fact out there...modern medicine does not believe in iridology or homeopathy. In fact they say they have proven it not to work and find it laughable...of course they do...they're not making any money if someone heals naturally. But once again I digress.
So I went to the seminar and had this guy take pictures of my eyes. Ten days later he e-mailed me the results and a very specific program of supplements and diet for me to do for the next 3 months. I am one month into it officially today and let me tell ya, it isn't easy. The diet is strict and I definitely cheat on it...come on, I NEED sugar once in a while, but from what I was eating 4 weeks ago to how I eat now, I've practically done a 180. I "thought" I ate pretty healthy before but I can't believe what I actually considered healthy. Like I said, it hasn't been easy. In fact, at times, it's been down right miserable. I used to drink a Dr. Pepper every morning since I wake up at 4:30 for work every day. I miss my Dr. Pepper. I'm also a sugar addict so even though I've pretty much given that up I allow myself cheats here and there. The hardest thing has been salt...which is somewhat surprising because I'm not a salt lover...but EVERYTHING has salt in it!!
Anyway, I won't bore you with anymore details about my diet. Just know that this is what I'm trying for the next six months. I have absolutely nothing to lose. If pregnancy doesn't occur then I'll be healthier and my body will be even more ready for in-vitro. I just wanted to let everyone know where I'm at. It continues to be a heart-breaking journey and I don't don't know what I would do without all of you. I love you very much and I can only get through my days because I know I have the love and support of so many friends and family.

SUMMER 2009!

2009-10-24T05:11:00.000-07:00

I think the Black Eyed Peas summed it up best when they said: If we could party all night and sleep all day, and throw all of our problems away...my life would be eeeeaaasy!! Ok, so we partied all day and slept all night like normal people, but we had one fantastic summer of boating and playing. After Lake Havasu it rained for WEEKS and weeks....not joking, you all remember May and June right? The first nice weekend of the summer we went to our personal favorite place to boat, Starvation reservoir. Then for my birthday (and just for fun) we all headed to Lake Powell. The scenery was GORGEOUS and we really roughed it by camping out on the beach. We also took our annual trip to Texas with Austins family to hit Schlitterbaun (the largest water park in the country). In between it all we hit Utah Lake several times and enjoyed the warm water wakeboarding and surfing there.

Austin surfing the wave behind the boat in Starvation

Brandon and Cassies daughter, Bella, looks adorable pretending to drive the boat.

Brandon looking good jumping the wake.

Austin mastered jumping the wake this year, a feat that I only pulled off a couple of times and not even a picture to prove it :(

Cassie looking good on the wakeboard

Me trying to look good on the wakeboard but not really doing much at all.

...except crashing

Brandon, Cassie, Austin and I having a little bit of silly time by the fire.

The beginning of our Lake Powell trip

Ty pulling an air railey!!

Looks like the crash landing hurt!

Austin

Cam, Cassie, Michelle and Rachel

What up yo! LOL

Us girls really had a good time any chance we got

Cassie, Michelle, Rachel and Liza

Cam and Austin double surfing

We didn't get many pictures but our trip to Schlitterbaun in Texas was one of the highlights of the summer.

Morgan crossing the pool

We tried to get to Utah Lake as often as we could. We had a great time boating all summer and I can't wait for next year already!

Feeling Grateful...

2009-08-14T16:59:00.000-07:00

I have so many new pictures to post of this summer, but it will have to wait until I have time to organize them all...I have more important things to discuss...
I was just out for a run, and that's when I have all my major epiphanies...well, running and the dentist chair but that's a whole nother story...ha ha, but I digress. As I was saying, I was out for a run and I always get to thinking about all the things I have going on in my life at the moment. There's just something about the fresh air, the adrenaline, the music flowing through my headphones and nature all around that helps me clear my head and sometimes (not always) helps me to figure out solutions to my problems or at least gives me a renewed sense of strength and fight to overcome anything. Today I was thinking about how good life has been lately, not perfect heaven knows!!!!, but good, and just the other day a big wall was thrown up in our way. It was a tough day and has been stressful since. The best part about it is...I still can't complain. I have had a few months now where I have had it so good. Sometimes we are given these wedges and walls just as everything is cruising along great to remind us (me) that we need to give thanks when times are good instead of just expecting things to be good and work out how we want them to ( boy wouldn't that be nice). I don't usually get all religious on the blog but I want my future kids (who will hopefully someday read this) to know that I truly do believe that everything is in the Lord's hands and everything is on His time. I just need to be reminded of that once in a while. I know it sounds cheesy and cliche but I know we are given trials to teach us and to help us appreciate the good times even more. I love my husband, my family and my friends, you are my support system and I am blessed forever for having such loving people in my life.
Yes, I know, very deep for just a 4 mile run but you guys wouldn't believe what I come up with out there. Maybe I'll start a thing and blog after I have a "moment" while running. awww.

Lake Havasu

2009-07-01T16:31:00.001-07:00

Austin and I went to Lake Havasu back in April with a few friends. We had a great, wild, crazy time from sun-up until waaaaaay after sun-down...

Me, Cassie and Chalice

Three girls on one lounge chair...not too shabby...what do you think? Is that my arm around Chalice? What the???? Ha ha.

Boats, boats everywhere

The actual London Bridge...not so much falling down.

Me, Austin, Brandon, Cassie, Gabe, Jesse and Chalice...Gabe, Jesse and Chalice oh my...too much to put into words on the blog. LOL!

Here's the back patio at the nice place we stayed in.

Just when I thought this crazy week was going to end without a hitch....

Don't worry, we blew up the barbecue on the last night there!!!

Mother's Day

2009-05-10T20:54:00.000-07:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY...

To my mom, who is the best there is or ever was...I mean it.
To my sisters who are excellent sisters and wonderful, amazing mothers.
To all my friends who never cease to amaze me and those of you who have taken me under your wing during the good and the bad times.
To Norma Jean...you are sorely missed.

I LOVE you all!!

Rachel

2009-05-10T20:19:00.000-07:00

GRANDPA LEMKE March 15, 1919 - March 13, 2009

My Grandpa Lemke passed away in March, 2 days before his 90th birthday :(
We knew it was coming, he had been sick for a couple of months and in and out of the hospital... but it was still so hard to take. My parents had already planned a trip out to Wisconsin for his birthday so they already had a flight out and said they would help whoever wanted to come. So of course I jumped on it, cause I really felt like our family should be represented there. So after looking at tons of flights, Me, Gina, Amanda and Jared all got a flight out to Wisconsin. Paul had just arrived home from California and couldn't make it. (We missed having him there with us!)
I really loved my grandpa and will miss him dearly. My only regret is not being able to see him more. Living so far away made it difficult to truly be close with him. The times we did visit, or that he came to visit us were always such a good time though. I will remember it well.
Grandpa was such a fun loving guy, and it makes me realize just where my dad got all of his sense of humor and fun personality from... they are alike in so many ways. I will always remember that about my grandpa, he was always smiling and goofing off. He had a love for bowling and golf and was known as "Geno". My dad's mom had passed away at a young age and he has been without her for I believe it was 37 years? I know they are together again and that makes me so happy!! We love you and will miss you so much grandpa!

When we got to Wisconsin we had to have my parents favorite pizza, NEDS! Mmm, it was so yummy and so much fun to spend time with my family.

Of course we had to hit our FAVORITE frozen custard spot.. KOPPS! Literally the best you will ever have :)

This was the night before the funeral, we went to my aunt Paulette's and helped put picture boards together.

In these two pictures we are in my Grandpa's house, the first, Amanda is showing off her 20 weeks belly! The picture below is all of us with Grandpa.. (literally, I swear the spot in the middle by his picture is Grandpa there with us.. jared.. it's not a thumb print! haha)

This is right after the funeral, putting the casket in the car.

These were the soldiers outside... SO COOL, they shot off gunshots for grandpa and it was the neatest experience. I think every funeral should have this even if they didn't serve! :)

My dad :) I love this picture of him.

Right before they gave this flag to my dad...
which was one of the best moments for me, when they handed it to my dad and did this little ceremonial thing... I am pretty sure it's the first time I have ever seen my dad cry... which in turn made me BAWL!

My dad after receiving the flag

They have everyone splash holy water onto the casket at the end and you then get to take a flower from the top.

This is my mom and Amanda with my grandpa's sister Doris

Jared, mom, dad and Rachel

My dad and his aunt Doris

Fun in February

2009-03-09T21:30:00.000-07:00

Okay, so I let the entire month of February pass by...it seemed to go so fast. But, we did do some fun things. The night before Valentine's Day Austin took me to Tucanos for dinner. We had a really fun, romantic time with just the two of us. On Valentine's Day he treated me to breakfast at Village Inn. It was really fun to take time out and do things just for us. Later that night we went to my sister Gina's house and ate steak dinner with them and my other sister Amanda and her husband. After dinner the kiddos joined us for some choclate fondu and treats! It was so fun and I loved spending time with my family and nieces and nephews. I used to make this big deal out of days like Valentine's or birthdays and think that the bigger gift I gave or received, the more love there was. I was so wrong and so lame. Now I understand and realize that it's the little every day things that count and mean so much. I love Austin so much, he is my companion, soul mate, lover and best friend.

Later in the month, on February 27th, was Austins birthday. As many of you know he is from New Orleans and it just happened to be Mardi Gras the week of his birthday. I tried really hard to pull together a big surprise Mardi Gras party and almost did it without a hitch. The big problem? I couldn't get Austin out of the house to set everything up!! What a stinker. I ended up telling him about an hour before the party and made him help me decorate. We had a great time with our friends and everyone dressed up. I was supposed to be a nurse and Austin my patient, but he took the hospital gown off after about 5 whole minutes. Every party needs a pooper I guess.

Pictures of Austins Mardi Gras themed birthday party and Valentine's Day with the Ginn's and the Zoll's.

A New Fertility Update

2009-01-15T17:39:00.000-08:00

I just wanted to write a quick update, since a lot has happened. A few short months ago, things felt and seemed pretty hopeless. Then, I went to a doctor appointment with Austin and we got the best news!!! I couldn't believe it. I am usually pretty optimistic, but I had let everything get to me and was expecting the worst. All of a sudden I could see a light at the end of the tunnel! So, I scheduled my surgery, and as some of you know, already had it about a week ago. It's been a somewhat rough recovery. (I kinda expected to be jumping around, back at work and the gym a few days later...that didn't happen.) However, it's been totally worth it. The prognosis is good and there is nothing left to do but get our baby makin' on!!! Ha ha, so wish us luck and keep your fingers crossed.

I also wanted to thank my sisters, mom, my whole family really, for helping me when I've needed it and for the meals and comfy pajamas. You guys are the best! Another thanks to neighbors and friends for the food, presents and flowers. You all keep me going and remind me how blessed I am!

Snow, snow and more snow...

2009-01-15T17:29:00.000-08:00

Like everyone else, we found ourselves almost snowed in a couple of weeks ago. It was kind of fun, but a ton of work...for Austin at least, ha! Poor Austin had to shovel snow like five times a day for 4 or 5 days in a row. I got to just admire the beautiful stuff from the window. Now he knows how it feels. I got stuck doing it last year since he was out of town. I get the feeling we'll have a snow blower next year. : ) hee hee.

Look at that wall of snow he shoveled! Keep in mind he is 6'1". What a man!! Thanks honey.

This next picture is of our neighbors roof top. It is flat so it just accumulated all the snow. It's hard to tell without any perspective, but that's like a foot and a half and the snow was still falling strong!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

2009-01-03T12:01:00.000-08:00

I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. I found myself surrounded by my family and closest friends throughout the holidays and cannot possibly have asked for anything more.
I wanted to take a moment to express my thanks to all of you for your friendship and love. I couldn't expect to have better friends, a more loving family and in-laws than that I have. I LOVE you all! Thank you for blessing mine and Austin's life so much and making us feel so loved.
Austin and I also want to express our deepest gratitude for the gospel in our lives and the guidance and influence it provides. We are so grateful at this time of year, and every time for our savior and all that we have been given and blessed with.

You Are Green Lights

Your holidays are a time of rest and solace.

You take time to reflect on the year that's passed.

You also enjoy connecting with friends and family you've lost touch with.

The holidays are your opportunity to remember what's important in your life.

What Color Christmas Lights Are You?

Thanksgiving in New Orleans

2008-12-02T19:34:00.000-08:00

Austin has been in Louisiana for the last month working with his dad. His parents live just outside of New Orleans so I flew in to the "Big Easy" to be with my big daddy! hee hee. We had a great Thanksgiving at his house with a fabulous turkey dinner prepared by his mom. Yum yum, it was soooooooo good! I ate so much my stomach hurt and I just laid (is that how you spell it?) around for the rest of the day, finishing off with a huge helping of pie and ice cream. While I was there we went shopping, to the movies and shopping some more. It was so nice to have a break from work to just hang out with Austin. On my last day there we headed down to the French Quarter and hit our favorite spots. The french market is crazy...it's lined with tables upon tables upon tables of anything from voo doo dolls and alligator heads to purses and sun glasses. We rarely actually buy anything, but it's fun and always interesting to bum around in there.

We ate beignets (french doughnuts) at our favorite spot, Cafe du Monde, while listening to live jazz music. It's such a fun experience to get to go to New Orleans once and a while and experience a completely different culture (if that's what you would call it). Thank you LaVaur and Jean Lux for the accomodations and hospitality. I love you guys!!!!

These kind of guys are everywhere in the French Quarter, always playing jazz music for everyone. They are so talented and it adds so much to the atmosphere.

Here I come to save the day!!!

2008-11-25T16:55:00.000-08:00

Okay, so it's WAY past Halloween, but I just downloaded these pics and they were way too good! My co-worker, Seth, took them and photo-shopped a couple. My nick-name at work is Mighty Mouse. I got that nick-name a few years back while I was transferring a rather large patient into his wheelchair. He didn't think I could do it, and when I proved him wrong (quite easily I might add) he dubbed me Mighty Mouse. As most of you know, I'm 5'2" on a good day, but I'm very fiesty and with the right technique I can lift, move, push and whip any of my patients into shape, any day. So, I decided to dress the part for Halloween this year. We always have a great time at work and Halloween was no exception. Below, you'll see the incredible Hulk, Batgirl, Lucille Ball, a guitar hero, some goulish guys, one nerd and oh, yeah, Napolean Dynamite!!! Gosh!

A Twilight "Suck"-cess!!!

2008-11-23T14:59:00.001-08:00

Well, suck it most definitely did not, but there were some sucking scenes, LOL! We had sooooo much fun! As some of you know from previous posts, my mom, sister and I decided a few months ago to reserve an entire theater for the movie "Twilight" on opening day. We were all sitting around talking about how much we love Twilight, but weren't willing to fight the crowds to get tickets and most definitely weren't willing to wait in line for hours to get a decent seat. So began our fun adventure of throwing a big Twilight screening for us and 162 of our closest friends and family. The night began with apple shaped sugar cookies (compliments of my sisters) and various party favors and prizes. Then ended at my moms house with a Twilight after party. It turned out so much better than I had ever dreamed. Everyone had a great time and we all ooooed and awed at Edward and Carlisle!!! Wow, Carlisle!! My sisters, mom, and I wore our favorite Twilight Tees and I "vamped" up my make-up just for fun. If you've seen the movie, go see it again!! It was way better the second time. (Yes, I've already seen it twice.) Take my word for it, it's worth another ticket.

My mom did an awesome job on the after party and had great decorations, yummy food and an incredible red velvet cake decorated for Twilight!! Thanks mom, you're the best!

Get ready everybody, because Summit Entertainment announced they are definitely doing the sequel, "New Moon"!!! Here we go again! Thanks to the Amara girls, my sisters, mom and everyone who came and made it a night to remember. Love you all!!

A "little" Girls Night Out

2008-11-22T09:22:00.000-08:00

There is this cute family down the street from me with 5 adorable little girls. A couple nights ago, their mom (who is a really good friend of mine) and I had this fun girls night out with another of our friends and her daughter. They are so dang cute and I had sooooo much fun!!! I can't wait to have a little girl of my own.

We ate pizza, salad and dessert, painted our fingers and toes, and had a lot of fun being silly. Their mom told me that her 5 year old, Summer, told her that I was a "hot number". LOL!! Oh my gosh, how could I resist that!? I love 'em.

A favorite memory...

2008-10-06T20:15:00.000-07:00

Austin tackled me onto the bed in my condo and said:

"Rachel, you're my best friend...will you marry me?"

To which I replied..."YES."

I LOVE YOU AUSTIN!!!!

The Last Hooraw

2008-10-05T19:13:00.000-07:00

We went boating for the last time this season a couple days ago, and not a second too soon, because it's been cold and rainy all weekend. We are going to winterize the boat this week and put it in storage : ( sad. We decided to go one last time and it was perfect... The water was glass, we were the only ones on the lake and Austin and I took as many turns as we wanted. Our friends Cam and Michelle joined us later in the day and it turned out to be beautiful. I forgot to bring my camera so here are a few highlights from this summer...

Our friend Ian doing a flip...look how high he is!!!

Cam attempting a flip at Starvation

Woo woo, look at those muscles!!!

Here's Austin on our first boat trip...I wish we had the camera on the last one, he's jumping the wake now...maybe next year he'll be looking a little more like Ian. : )

Nobody can hold a candle to our friend Ian...he's practically a pro! And yes, he landed that.

Me, looking mighty comfortable out there!

This is a good close up of Austin

A fertility update...

2008-10-02T09:08:00.000-07:00

A lot of people ask...and even more don't, probably because they don't want to pry. I usually don't mind when someone asks, because there isn't much to tell and I try my hardest to suppress emotion about the whole thing. There hasn't been much I can do but wait and be patient. But the whole process has been too much for me lately and I have to talk about it. I am so sad I feel disabled. I can't seem to force the emotion away from my body. My monthly friend came and it is more than I can bare this month. Usually I expect it and it's not hard to get over the little disappointment I feel each month. (I keep hoping for a miracle.) Something was different this month though...I just had a feeling this could be it. (Maybe it was the 5 pounds I gained and can't seem to get rid of : ). I am devastated. I think maybe I'm finally just starting to accept and come to terms with the fact that I can't get pregnant. I knew...the doctors told me and Austin...people have told me...offered their advice...but somehow I guess I must have been in denial this whole time still, even though I didn't think I was. Still hoping for a miracle. I am, in fact, going to have to get surgery and we are going to have to go through with this whole fertility thing. I'm nervous and scared...I'd be lying if I didn't say that. I know it will be alright and my faith and hope are the only things that see me through. I am so grateful for Austin and my family...especially my sisters. Again, what would I do without them? Anyway, I'll keep everyone posted on the blog...I hate having to repeat the story a million times. Love you all. Thanks for your support and friendship.

Another fun cabin weekend

2008-09-07T17:27:00.000-07:00

We are so blessed to be able to spend time at the Zoll family cabin a couple times a year. I really love being around my family, even though I know I'm such a party pooper at night. Waking up at 4:45 a.m. every morning for work has really made Rachel a dull girl!! I have 12 nieces and nephews now and I just love to see them and spend time with them. There is so much to do at the cabin and every time we go, there are new things. We played... rock band on the theater size screen in the kids play room, sand volleyball, slip and slide, 4 wheeling, jungle gym with rock wall, pool, watched movies in the theatre room, swung on the rope swing, cards with the fam at night...all this and more, but the kids still fought and cried over who's turn it was on the arcade. Ha ha, kids will be kids. I truly have an amazing family, there isn't one member I could do without. How can I best describe my love for my sisters...I can't, there are no words. I wish I could spend more time with them. It's always nice when we can get together like this. It's like a vacation. Thanks again Zoll's!!

Brayden, Stacia and McKenna getting ready to slip and slide!

I stole this mosaic from Amanda's site. It's so cool and I don't know how to do it. Anyway it show's some good highlights of the trip.

Labor Day Camping and Boating

2008-09-07T16:16:00.000-07:00

We went camping over Labor Day weekend with our good friends Cam and Michelle and also Ty and Liza. We had so much fun I wonder why we haven't gone more. When all of us were just dating each other, we would go every weekend! We would just decide...then, grab everyone and everything and go. I guess that's what happens when we get older and kids come into the picture. Everything takes more planning and time. Cam and Michelle have a little girl and she is soooo dang cute!! She did so good the whole time, what a great little camper. It was fun to watch our good friends fill the role of parenthood so naturally and so well. I love you guys! Anyway, we had a great time boating during the day and hanging out by the fire at night. Saturday was a nice day, but there were so many boats on the lake it was a bit choppy. Still, it was fun to be out. Sunday, it was overcast and a bit cool, but the boys were brave and wanted to hit the lake. It turned out better than Saturday because we were all but alone on the lake. Us girls just bundled up and the boys took turns behind the boat. Here's some pics...

Austin jumping the wake

Sage in a makeshift bath, ha ha, I couldn't resist...it's so cute!

Cam and Sage by the fire

Michelle, Sage and Liza

Cam doing a flip

Ty and Liza

Everyone bundled up on the boat...and the video below...is of Rachel wiping out!

In over my head!!!

2008-08-27T11:01:00.000-07:00

As many of you already know, the movie Twilight is coming out this November. My sisters and I really want to see it on opening day and, as much as we love the Twilight books, we are not willing to fight for tickets or, more importantly, not willing to wait in line for 5 hours to get a good seat. Anyway, I'm rambling... we've been kicking around the idea of renting a movie theatre and only selling most of the seats to ensure nobody has to sit on the front row. After a few attempts at calling Cinemark, and e-mailing, just to get more information, I gave up as nobody ever returned my phone calls or e-mails. Thinking ahead I began to feel like we were just going to have to wait a few days after opening day for the mania and crowds to calm down. Well, thanks to my sister Gina who encouraged me to try the Megaplex theatre in Lehi, we are all set. It happened so fast...first I reserved the smallest theatre they have, and two days later upgraded to one of the biggest ones!!Ha! I have been bombarded with phone calls by people who want or need "just one more ticket". I love it, it's been so fun and also so tiring. You wouldn't believe the guilt trip one girl tried to lay on me. I would love to take all of Utah County with me, however, they aren't bench seats. We can't all squish in...I only have so many. If you're one of the lucky ones on my or my two sisters lists, then not to worry. There are 212 seats and only 162 people will be coming!! Nobody will have to worry the least about being anywhere near the front.

We've been up to...

2008-08-22T14:25:00.000-07:00

We went to Texas at the beginning of August where we had a lot of fun boating on Lake Conroe (our favorite lake in the whole world!) and hanging out at Schlitterbaun. For those of you who have never heard of Schlitterbaun, it is the world's biggest water park. Yes, I said world's biggest...and after being there a couple of times I would have to say that statement is most likely true. We also went down to San Antonio to the river walk and explored some underground caverns a.k.a. caves. We had a blast hanging out with Austin's family and relaxing for a whole week.

Above is Austin and Hamilton (Austin's cousin) with Hamilton's kids on the tube.
Below are the caves we hiked through.

We went to the riverwalk in San Antonio. Since it was just Austin and I, we only get to take pictures of one of us at a time.

Here is just a section of the river walk with a river tour going on. It was really tempting every time we passed someone to just give them a little nudge and push them in to the river. There are tons of shops and restaurants all along the river walk. It's pretty cool I guess.

This is just a small section of Schlitterbaun. This is in the newer section of the park, but there is an original section, built first, that is all powered by river water from the Comel river. I love it, there is so much to do there and never a dull moment.

woo woo

Aunt Carol made us get up early and get to the park an hour early so we could be first in line. Then, when they officially opened the park, Amy and I and a few of the cousins had to sprint to this table. Apparently it is tradition to sit here and I must say, it is the best spot in the whole park.

Austin, looking a little WT in the wife beater.

2008-07-30T20:00:00.000-07:00

Okay, so I'm backtracking a little...I can't seem to get over my Hawaii trip...it was just so fun! Anyway, I didn't have this picture at the time and it definitely had to make the blog. We had just gotten there and of course we were so excited to go to the beach and get in the water. We were standing there in the water together waiting for Cam (Michelle's husband) to take our picture. We kept telling him "hurry up" because the water wasn't exactly calm, and he kept telling us to hold on. All of a sudden he says "OK smile"....and about a millisecond later that huge wave you can see right behind us, crashed down on us and completely knocked us all down...Cassie and I even tumbled up the beach. We had no clue what was about to hit us...Cam, you really got us good! LOL!

Cassie, Michelle and me!

Tagged!!

2008-07-21T21:08:00.000-07:00

Okay, so my sister Amanda tagged me and I thought this looked fun. Lets see how much I can remember...I am just an old geezer now ya know.
What I was doing 10 years ago...Holy smokes I had just turned 21!! Wow what a time. Funny thing is, I'm such a good girl I didn't do anything crazy, I can hardly remember my 21st birthday...sad. What I do remember is that is was a happy, carefree time. I was getting ready to graduate from college. COLLEGE!!!! WHOA! and boy did I pick the right profession. I love what I do and still laugh my butt off at work every day.
5 Years ago...I was 26 years old and I had just met Austin, the man I would marry 2 1/2 years later. Ha Ha. I love him. What a fun time. I remember that year I went to New York for the first time with my aunt Nenka (truly a trip of a lifetime). It was also the first time I would hit New Orleans and experience alot of other firsts in my life. 26 was a year of finding myself and definitely reinventing myself...I even almost changed my name...oh man, remember the whole Riley thing Dylan? LOL. (If you don't know the story you should ask me sometime).
1 year ago...I had just turned 30...another stepping stone for sure. 30 is a funny age to be. The age you never thought you would be, but when you get here, you feel just as young as ever, but everyone expects you to act so mature all of a sudden. I love my life and have been so very blessed with an amazing husband, wonderful friends, a good job and the best family anyone could ask for.
Yesterday...I taught primary in the morning. I have these triplets in my class and they are adorable! They wear me out in the two hours I spend with them, I can only imagine how their mom feels. Then yesterday evening my entire family got together at my parents house. It was awesome...our family has grown so much throughout the years and it is unbelievable and fun when we're all together.
Today...Well, I got up at 4:45 am, as usual, and went to work for 10 hours straight today...an exceptionally long day. Then I just hung out with Austin for a while, went for a short run because I ran into an old patient of mine and ended up talking way more than running. But, I made up for it by doing ab ripper x when I got home.
5 favorite snax...anything chocolate, ice cream sandwiches, rice crispy treats, smoothies and hot tomales.
5 favorite books...Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, The Host and all three Lord of The Rings books. I know, I know, I'm a total geek.
5 places I would love to run away to...New Zealand, Tahiti, Hawaii, Cancun or The Virgin Islands...I'm a tropical paradise kind of girl.
5 bad habits...procrastinating, junk food, Dr Pepper mmmmmmmm, being lazy and popping my gum.
5 things I would never wear...skinny jeans (not too many people can pull these off, also, I've been there, done that), a nose ring, a swim suit without board shorts, a belly shirt (although I could totally rock it with these abs) and a tank top with my bra hanging out (tacky).
5 pet peeves...People who don't do their share, crappy singers who think they're good (at least I admit I suck), stopping at red lights at 5:45 a.m. when there is no traffic, people who go slow in the fast lane and people who use you.
5 things I like to do...Spend time with family, work out, shop, snow board and wake board.
5 favorite TV shows...Everybody loves Raymond, King of Queens, Smallville, Gossip Girl and Supernatural.
5 famous people I would like to meet...hmmmm, I dunno, I'll have to ponder it. I don't really care about famous people. Stephenie Meyer for sure!! Ellen, cause she is so dang funny.
5 people I tag...the only 5 people I know who haven't done this yet...Kristen, Cory, Emily, Michelle and Heather.

Gina's big debut!!!!

2008-07-21T16:58:00.001-07:00

Gina recently had the opportunity to guest host on Good Things Utah...Look at her!! She's a natural, they should hire her don't you think? She fits right in.

Amanda and I above and the rest of us below...waiting to get in to the studio

Primping for the show!

Here she is on TV!! FABULOUS!!

All of us with the cast after the show

Cabin Fun

2008-07-21T16:34:00.000-07:00

Here it is...the Zoll family cabin (my sister, Amanda's in-laws). 10,000 sq. feet in fairview and never a dull moment at this place. We are so fortunate to be able to use it a couple of times a year. Thanks Amanda and Wade!!!!!!

Here are the pool table, fusball (Idunno how to spell it) and the theater room!
Here are the two halves of the kitchen...it's too big to take a picture of the whole thing.

Amanda plays on the rope swing in the huge play room...
SPOILED I TELL YA!!! WE LOVE IT!

2008-07-20T19:37:00.000-07:00

Dan and Austin playing arcade at the Zoll Cabin! I'm kickin dan's trash!!!

2008-07-17T16:09:00.000-07:00

Other than the gigantic pimple....not to shabby for 31 eh! Whatev, zits make you look younger right? Ha ha, LOL!!

2008-07-17T15:47:00.000-07:00

It's almost been 2 months since Hawaii and the summer is half over!!! I can hardly believe it. We've done so much this summer already. We've been to Vegas for a weekend and made it down to the fairview cabin as well as spent tons of time with family and friends. I look forward to what the rest of summer holds. The weather has been hot, but amazing!! I love summer time. I just celebrated my 31st birthday on July 14th and just want to thank all of you for the happy wishes, treats and gifts. 31 isn't very exciting, just another year older, but I've had a great life and look forward to so many things. Austin surprised me with two dozen gorgeous yellow roses!! He also treated me to some spa treatments (my personal favorite thing) and a few cute new clothing items. I feel like a million bucks!!! One of the most exciting things though, is that he also surprised me by buying me a new pink and black WAKEBOARD and new life jacket to match!!!! How spoiled am I?

2008-07-17T15:46:00.000-07:00

Aren't they pretty?!

SO WHAT COULD ALL THIS MEAN?

YOU GUESSED IT...........WE BOUGHT A BOAT!!!

2008-07-17T15:38:00.000-07:00

Check out my Slide Show!

2008-06-30T16:49:00.001-07:00

2008-06-05T15:12:00.000-07:00

We were lucky enough to go to Hawaii recently for 9 days!! The island of Kauaui was the perfect paradise. It was so lush and green in some areas, like a tropical rain forest and so sandy and blue at the beach. It was the best of everything. We went with two other couples, our best friends, Cam and Michelle and Brandon and Cassie. Brandon and Cassie have been there several times and we were so fortunate that we didn't have to search around for anything since they guided us around to the best spots....THANKS BRANDON AND CASSIE! We also had the opportunity to stay in a beautifully decorated house just steps from the beach....yeah, I could hear the waves from my bedroom. It was so relaxing, snorkeling, boat rides, laying out, swimming and jumping off waterfalls...and the food, mmmmmmmm. It was an overall tropical paradise experience.

2008-06-05T15:07:00.000-07:00

Look at that hottie!

2008-06-05T15:05:00.000-07:00

I LOVE THIS PLACE!!!!

2008-06-05T14:58:00.000-07:00

Eating was always fun since hawaiian food is soooooo good. I'm still craving the yummy hawaiin cuisine. Thanks to Brandon and Cassie we got to experience all the best restaurants. I could go for some chocolate soufflé right about now!!

2008-06-05T14:52:00.000-07:00

Our first day heading to the beach!!

2008-06-05T14:47:00.000-07:00

Cam and Michelle doing what we all did best...relaxing on the beach baby!!!

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Cassie and Michelle took surf lessons with the hot local surf instructor...

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WOO HOO!!

2008-06-05T14:39:00.000-07:00

Brandon and Cassie kickin' it in the water.

2008-06-05T14:33:00.000-07:00

Austin went snorkeling every day. We got to see all kinds of fish and sea-life. The water was perfect, clear and refreshing.

2008-06-05T14:32:00.000-07:00

Come on in, the water is great!!!!!!!!

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Here it is, the Napali coast on Kauaui. This is the beginning of a long stretch of cliffs, caves and mountains. Gorgeous!

2008-06-02T14:13:00.000-07:00

We took a Catamaran tour around the Napali coast. It was bee-utiful!!!! One of the most amazing sites I've ever seen. The napali coast is a protected national park and only accessible by boat or helicopter. It was a 6 hour tour...we got to see and snorkel with hundreds of dolphins, turtles and fish.

a little taste of mardi gras 2008

2008-03-28T17:09:00.000-07:00

...and I didn't even have to take off my shirt...

Mardi Gras 2008

2008-03-28T16:53:00.000-07:00

We went to Mardi Gras! It was crazy! We caught beads, panties, garter belts, stuffed animals and tons of mardi gras cups. We had so much fun checking out the parades and all the weirdos walking around dressed up in all kinds of things.

2008-03-28T16:51:00.000-07:00

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2008-03-27T17:32:00.000-07:00

We went to Texas at the end of '07 with Austin's family. Here we are in Austin, TX overlooking Lake Travis. We loved it so much we started looking for houses!

2008-03-27T17:28:00.000-07:00

entryway...austin and his dad put the railing in, something they will never do again : )

2008-03-27T17:26:00.000-07:00

kitchen...check out that huge fridge and freezer! austin had to have it.

2008-03-27T17:24:00.000-07:00

we put knotty alder doors, trim and cabinets in. Austin did most the work and Rachel helped out by staining. woo hoo.

2008-03-27T17:22:00.000-07:00

guest bath

House Interior remodelled

2008-03-27T17:18:00.000-07:00

master bath

2008-03-27T17:11:00.000-07:00

THE FINISHED PRODUCT!!! Wow what a difference! It's beautiful, and the inside is just as beautiful. Austin gutted the entire thing and we started over practically from scratch. It is modern with rustic and elegant touches. We love it!

2008-03-27T17:03:00.000-07:00

One of the best things we've done so far is purchase this 1970's house and remodel it. Austin did most the work himself. Here is the before picture of the outside of the house. At this point we had already replaced the windows in the front. They used to be amber yellow...ew!

Hawaiin Honeymoon

2008-03-27T16:57:00.000-07:00

Hawaii was beautiful!! Look at that water! It was the perfect honeymoon spot. We drove around the entire island of Oahu many times making sure to stop at every beach along the way. We even stopped on the side of the road to have fresh coconut juice straight from the coconut! It was everything I've ever heard it was. We will be back again soon.

2008-03-27T16:48:00.000-07:00

We went on a helicopter tour around the island of Oahu. It was by far the best thing we did. So worth it!

2008-03-27T16:39:00.000-07:00

Here we are at the Poynesian Cultural Center luau. We got to the cultural center kind of late and they told us the Luau was sold out. Rachel worked her magic and ended up getting us in. Sometimes being a girl has serious benefits. Woo hoo!